I am currently 13 years old, going to 14. This month of Ramadan, subhanAllah I have been guided correctly to Islam. I have been a muslim since my I was 8-9 years old. The difference is that although I believed that there is no God but Allah and that Muhammad is the prophet of Allah, I was way too stuck in this lifetime. I became accountable probably on the age of 10-11. But I didn't pray. I didn't know stuff about Islam such as Jumu'ah instead by slowly catching knowledge from the surroundings. Basically, I was making lots of sins. Now, I am 13 years old and I have learned alot about the religion. I am trying to fast and pray and pray for all the prayers I have missed. I fear and remember Allah for every thing I do, even if I am watching TV.
The problem is, I started to remember the sins that I have committed back then. I am so scared that I might have went out of Islam. - At age 12-13(before I became very religious), I had a class in school. We were learning about a story. The story was blasphemous. The story spoke about (God protect us from this) a boy who "looked" for God. (Wal ayathu billah). I knew at that time that it was a bad story, so I tried to refrain from saying it, but I can't not read for there was grades on it. My teacher HAD to ask me the most dangerous question: "Where did this Boy find ____? And in my heart, I know that I don't believe what I said. I needed to say something. So, I said: "So, he found a place". I immediately hated what I said and said that I believe that God exists without a place. I don't know if I knew that it would have possibly removed me from Islam. Did it take me out of Islam?
Please give me back an answer. I absolutely fear Allah and I am trying to worship him. Please tell me if I am still in Islam. InshaAllah.
The question has been closed for the following reason "The question is answered, right answer was accepted" by lmnopq Jul 31 at 21:00
Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, Bismillah
ففي الصحيحين من حديث أبي هريرة أن رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم قال: من صام رمضان إيمانا ً واحتساباً غفر له ما تقدم من ذنبه
Narrated Abu Huraira (may Allah be pleased with him): Allah’s Apostle (may peace be upon him) said, Whoever prayed at night the whole month of Ramadhan out of sincere faith and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven. (AlBukhari)
( إنما التوبة على الله للذين يعملون السوء بجهالة ثم يتوبون من قريب فأولئك يتوب الله عليهم وكان الله عليما حكيما ( 17 ) )
The repentance accepted by Allah is only for those who do wrong in ignorance [or carelessness] and then repent soon after. It is those to whom Allah will turn in forgiveness, and Allah is ever Knowing and Wise. (17)
وَأَقِمِ الصَّلَاةَ طَرَفَيِ النَّهَارِ وَزُلَفًا مِّنَ اللَّيْلِ ۚ إِنَّ الْحَسَنَاتِ يُذْهِبْنَ السَّيِّئَاتِ ۚ ذَٰلِكَ ذِكْرَىٰ لِلذَّاكِرِينَ ﴿١١٤﴾
And establish prayer at the two ends of the day and at the approach of the night. Indeed, good deeds do away with misdeeds. That is a reminder for those who remember. (114)
u didn't plan on doing those sins about the class in school and u feel sorry for it that is a sign, feeling sorry for what u did is repenting don't be scared u r a Muslim and a good one too we all make sins but not all repent , u said u immediately felt sorry u should be proud of ur self at such a young age Maa shaa Allah and u fear Allah and want to worship him ,also u said u didn't know much back then so there is absolutely nothing to be afraid of u should be happy proud of yourself and thank allow for this gift the gift that u fear him the gift that u want to be a good Muslim the gift that u feel sorry for ur sins and want to repent and u have been guided correctly and u feel a difference in Ramadan , trust me a very few Muslims experience those feelings , one last thing about the Percy Jackson books i really want to read them why do u think i shouldn't?