I am a young man of 28years of age, and i am i a serious mess as am writing this questions. i don't know wherether am losing faith or what to call it.
i cant concentrate on anything that has to do with worshiping again. I dont observe the daily prayers regularly until night when i pray all, all i think about now is sex and other irrelevant issues, i cant wake up night to perform any nafilat prayer, am now somewhat addicted to music.
So many negative changes in my life and am scared. the more i tried to get closer to GOD, the more i fail.
Brothers in Islam please help me before it is too late.
Get married pray and ask for forgivness say azzudubillahiminalshaitan irajeem you are listining to the devil dont let him lure you in
I think I can relate to you, I didn't have any faith a couple of years ago even though I was born in a muslim family. My life was, missing something. I know everyone says that, but everytime I was alone I was just attacked by this feeling, a deep wondering as to why i was here, what my purpose in life was etc. The reason was this:
I had NO knowledge of the religion. None whatsoever. I didn't have any islamic people there to influence me, most of my family weren't practising muslims. And it took me months before I had an 'epiphany' really, that was when I first learnt about the 2 following things:
The islamic view on science. Absolutely. Amazing. Things that modern science have ONLY just discovered were there in the Quran over 1400 years ago. It would be impossible for any human to know those things. So the Quran was clearly from a divine source.
And the prophecies the Prophet Muhammad pbuh made about the signs that would happen before the last day. It's absolutely impossible that the Prophet could have known these things. Therefore it was knowledge and logic that bought me to islam. After I discovered these 2 things I seeked knowledge more, and I can honestly say that i have NEVER had any of those feelings that I experienced of emptiness before since I began following Islam. So here's my advice:
I answered a similar question a while back in much greater detail, here's the link: http://islam.com/questions/848/how-to-have-faith?page=1#1030 (my answer is the 2nd one there)
After you have faith, you will naturally start doing good deeds and become a good muslim Insha'Allah.
I hope this is helpful. If you have any more questions feel free to ask :)
P.s. about the music. I too am trying to stop listening to it, I know that the reason behind why listening to music is haram is because it stops you from thinking about Allah. I went 30 days without it once and then just began listening to it again. I've found that when I have my wudhu I stop myself 'quite' easily from picking up the mp3 because I know that if I do I will nulify my wudhu and so will not get as many rewards when I read my prayers (but again, this should be checked becuase I have no quote from the Quran or hadith to support this. But i know for sure that listening to music is haram) Watch this (it's from a world renowned scholar in islam): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rNd5569Vi0
P.p.s I know that there is a lot of information about islam and you may feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start, so here are my recomendations:
So to conclude: Learn as much as you can about islam. Knowledge will lead to faith. And faith will lead to good deeds and you becoming a good muslim.