I am very depressed and feel like committing suicide. I am a Muslim. I feel like life has no meaning and feel like questioning the existence of God. I feel like God doesn't care and just wants to make my life a living hell. I apologize if what I am saying is against the rules because I had no time to read. So I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me if I said anything wrong. I really feel like committing suicide, I don't know what I should do, I don't know if God will forgive me for the things I've done.
I pray five times a day, I read the hadith, I try to please God but I find life so difficult. I don't know why God would want to do this to me. God doesn't talk to me or answer my prayers, God seems so harsh and unapproachable, God just seems like he isn't there. And my so-called brothers (and sisters) in Islam aren't much of a help either. I feel like there is not one single human on the face of this planet who can help and understand. I feel like there is no point in living. I might lose my faith any time and just commit suicide.
What can I do?
Once again, sorry if this goes against the rules or offends anyone, I am unable to think clearly at the moment. I just hope I can find help.
Dear brother, I would like to quote here a few verses of the Quran, where Allah, may He be Exalted says: [interpretation of the meaning:]
And from wherever you go out [for prayer], turn your face toward al-Masjid al-Haram. And wherever you [believers] may be, turn your faces toward it in order that the people will not have any argument against you, except for those of them who commit wrong; so fear them not but fear Me. And [it is] so I may complete My favor upon you and that you may be guided.
Just as We have sent among you a messenger from yourselves reciting to you Our verses and purifying you and teaching you the Book and wisdom and teaching you that which you did not know.
So remember Me; I will remember you. And be grateful to Me and do not deny Me.
O you who believe! Seek help in patience and As-Salat (the prayer). Truly! Allah is with As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).
And say not of those who are killed in the Way of Allah, "They are dead." Nay, they are living, but you perceive (it) not.
And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).
Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: "Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return."
They are those on whom are the Salawat (i.e. blessings, etc.) (i.e. who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are those who) receive His Mercy, and it is they who are the guided-ones.
Dear brother, do not give up hope and do not despair of the Mercy of your Lord, the Most Forgiving, the Most Merciful and do not forge that He is the acceptor of our supplications and that He will reward the good doers in the Hereafter with Paradise. Remember that your Lord is the Most Just and that this life is but a test that will soon be over. and reflect on His blessings. If you try to count them, and you can never fully count and innumerate them, you will always find them to be greater than your dificulties.
Remember brother that Satan invites you to the hellfire and Allah invites you to His Mercy and Forgiveness.
May Allah make it easy for you.. Ameen.
I can relate to your difficulties and hardship, patients brother. I went through tough times myself for about 7 years. I felt the same way. Don't give and don't quit believing. This world is nothing compared to the hereafter. The hardships you face can only make you stronger. Please remember Allah is great and caring. We are all tested in this world, you will be rewarded for the hardships you face. Remember be stronger and never give up. My Allah give you strength and shower you with his blessings...Ammen. Salaam Alykoum
Brother AbdullahImranAz, Trials and tribulaions are the means of purifying you so that you can go to the purest places(jannat ). The punishment of Allah is not out of anger and wrath but the punishment of Allah is the way of cleansing you out of your sins so that you can go to the noblest places.
REad the above Dua continuously..and kalma sahrif all the time in your mouth and stop thinking about your difficulties. and never think of sucide.because your life of depression in this world can be upto 60-70 years but after death , that life is eternal.and the person who will commit sucide,all of his good deeds will be ruined and he will remain in the jahanam forever..so my brother, seek help from Allah.He(Almighty) is testing you...stop considering that u are only one who is suffering from difficulties..He(Almighty) Tests every person in this world by different ways to seperate the people of heaven and hell....:) stay Happy..your Life is a blessing .....Respect it and value it,,:)
don't commit suicide simple as that..... .....and as hard as diamond.
you need 'change' of the ways you are now
easy as well as you believe that Allah hears everything and know.
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bissm allah alrahman arraheem......ina ma3 ilusry usraa, with difficult times comes ease, this is a verse found in many surahs in the quran somtimes we may feel hoplessness but allah has given us this verse as an ease to our hearts, remmember this verse whenever you feel times are difficult, keep your faith as strong as you can although it may seem difficult continue with your daily prayers and 3ibada and inshaallah your usrraa, or ease will come
"...Bear with patience whatever befalls you...." (Qur'an 31:17) and "Be not sad, surely Allah is with us." (Qur'an 9:40)"O' you who believe! Seek help in patience and the Prayer." (Qur'an 2:153)
Salam brother! I dont know but you just made my tears drip away!! be steadfast in your prayers my brother!! You are lucky that despite the fact that you are in great depression you still keep your prayers and commitment to God!! while others give up so easily!
My brother I know you are having some problems believe it or not the hardship endured is directly proportional to the good deeds you will gain! many of the companions were going mad at times they dont experienced hardships and predicaments. they were asking God to send them more hardships for they know that at the end of the road they would gain the love of God and and good deeds. They never wanted an Easy LIFE their only aspiration is to please God! Ive experience worst things but I hold onto HIM! oh, Brother what is life without Trials? (compare your trials to that of prophet Ayoub and youll see!)
To tell you the truth I did blame God for my misfortunes when i was around 6-7 yrs old and I could still remember it. Everytime I remember it I call myself a fooool and when hardships come I thank God! Remember that if God didnt care even for 1 second you would have been dead by now and you would have missed this message your reading now! Be patient my brother!! the fact that ive seen your post is a sign that God cares! I am a new member 13 hours ago!
Hello, i answered a few questions in which people were trying to look for faith in more detail so hopefully my answers here will be useful to you:
http://islam.com/questions/126/should-i-convert-to-islam-if-so-why?page=2#414 (last one on the page)
But briefly, it sounds like you do not have faith in Allah or islam (not judging here, i understand, i never used to be a faithful muslim either, but alhamdullillah i have found faith through education! you can NEVER have faith in something that you know very little about, sounds so obvious, but it took me a while to actually realise this.) Anyway, everything that i recommend is in my answers on those pages above that i've linked to.
P.s. please STOP and find faith. commiting suicide will solve nothing! atleast if you're alive you still have a chance to turn your life around, repent, but once you're dead that's it. Here's a relevant video that You can watch, the lecture is from dr. zakir naik (well renowned islamic scholar) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5WiFigX19g
And I wish you the best of luck! NEVER EVER give up faith in Allah, trust me, my life is 100% content and fullfilled when I practise Islam (which alhamdullilah I am trying to do more and more). My life before islam was empty, the constant questions of 'why am i here' 'what is my purpose in life' were haunting and I can whole-heartedly say that 2 years on after believing in islam i have not had any of those thoughts even ONCE. Islam; This is logically and scientifically the truth.
P.S. I totally recommend watching www.peacetv.tv if you want somewhere to start looking for information - so SO useful.
let me tell you, FIFI ABDU a famous Arabian bellie dancer goes Hajj every year because she wants the hope that she can go to Heaven and she want's Allah to have a little sympathy for her, and UM Kulthumm a famous singer has done the same, if these people have and want a chance to go to heaven and remember that God is the only Judge in the end, the most forgiving. Why commit suicide? You know if you die no Prayer is made for you? you know you are no longer a Muslim? you know that you must remember that the prophet (PBUH) had said "the best of you are those of (believers) who had hardship in their life", and also everyone has IBITLAH (test in life) at least 1 ibtilah every 40 days, and some companions of the Prophet (PBUH) would be sad if they had no Hardship every once and a while, because they think that God has forgotten them. God gives us these Tests in life, to be able to have Patients, this life was created for that. This life is too short, and the afterlife is eternity forever and ever......., Pray and ask for help from God and Imam. Believe me nothing is worth committing Suicide, life is a gift, look at others around you, some much people who have much less in life and still say "Al-hamduallah(thank God)", there are people hungry, people with illness, people with nothing and etc...., there is so much and God has given you, like eyes to see the world around you, I think you need to really learn how to appreciate most things in life people take for granted.
Allah is great and look at Ayyub in the Qur'an In the Qur'an, it states that the Job was a righteous servant of God, who was afflicted by suffering for a lengthy period of time. However, the Qur'an clearly states that Job never lost faith in God and forever called to God in prayer, asking Him to remove his affliction: And Job, when he cried unto his Lord, (saying): Lo! Adversity afflicteth me, and Thou art Most Merciful of all who show mercy. —Qur'an, sura 21 (The Prophets), ayah 83 The narrative goes on to state that after many years of suffering, God ordered Job to "Strike with thy foot!". At once, Job struck the ground with his foot and God caused a cool spring of water to gush forth from the Earth, from which Job could replenish himself. The Qur'an states that it was then that God removed his pain and suffering and He returned Job's family to him, blessed him with many generations of children and granted him great wealth. In addition to the brief descriptions of Job's narrative, the Qur'an further mentions Job twice in the lists of those whom God had given special guidance, wisdom and inspiration (IV: 163) and as one of the men who received authority, the Book and the gift of prophethood (VI:84). Look at Youtube videos of Ayyub and other Islamic Prophets and their test, if you understand Arabic listen to Omar Abdel Kafi he is the Best this is a nice lecture about patients part 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1Z07y2m_bQ part 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FK0-N4tE4S0
I want to tell you that I myself went threw the same thing as you. I have done my wrong and wouldn't forgive myself. I would talk to Allah and ask him for help, and in return, I would get horror night mares that would frighten me and this lasted for years. I felt llke I had no one to turn too. I was embarressed from my family when I would wake up in the middle of the night with my dreams. I still went on with my wrong doings. I prayed and prayed and cried many nights. Tried to committ suicide more then once , but never worked. I thought to myself why I'm I still alive and why isn't God taking me away???? finally I realized that he is punishing me on earth from my bad doings instead of punishing me in hell.. Meaning that God knows and is aware that I want to be good deep down. I fought everything and everyone who will guide me in the wrong paths. Telling me to do the bad then good. Even my thoughts (shaitan) and my emotions. El shaitan would love to see you like this and knows he is winning agains Allah. Ask yourself, who you want to please, where do you want to see yourself in life and in the end when your facing ALLAH??? how about if you did committ suicide and died? How will you face Allah? It would have been too late.. If someone was in your shoes, what would you tell him/her? Keep on praying and beg Allah for help, he will respond. Allah did with me.. Slowly... Allah tests you,just like everyting in life. Nothing comes easy. You have to work hard for anything in order to achive and be at your best. Think about everything this world, and you will realize how hard you have to work in order to succeed in life that Allah has created. Ask yourself what made you feel like this and change it. Only you will be able to answer this. No one can help you but yourself, no one will love you as much as you can love yourself. When you love someone, you will do everything possible to please that person, you learn to forgive, be patient, being a good listener, caring, etc... right? Why shouldn't you do the same for Allah who created everything and everyone around you? if your telling Allah, ok i'm going to pray now, so let's see what you will do? then it won't work.. Allah tests us, we don't test Allah. Be patient, Allah loves all of us and hears us. The time will come for you as it did for me. I am now happily married, I have a beautiful daughter and a muhajiba. Never in my mind would I have thought I would be here where I am today. remember, I was once where you are and disappointed my family from my actions. Now, I have them loving me more then ever. Allah has been more then greatful with me hamd el Allah. Answers all my prayers and Allah shows me my good doing. I don't see anything that I have seen in my past because I took some time to myself and asked myself what I need to change and fixed it. I begged Allah to forgive me by praying every day and talking with Allah every night before I go to bed. Inshallah brother you will be ok. Allah is testing you. El shaitan is trying to win you by his side. Don't let the shaitan win. Please Allah and you will see how everything will soon change. I beieve that all of us muslim brothers and sisters here are sent to you by Allah to tell you, that Allah loves you and Allah is waiting for the change. If you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to ask. I will be checking. I hope I helped. BTW I was searching information about 3omra, and this sight pulled up. I was never a member to this sight, I became a member once I saw your status. I know you will win at the end and will change to the best. I hope when the day comes, I meet you in Jannah inshallah, I know deep down inside of me, that you will be there Inshallah. Depression is a mind game, nothing else. You will win, for you to be here now and not committing suicide, shows how strong you are. If your strong, that means you can overcome anything that is wrong doing. Take life one step at a time. You will face a lot in life, so have the faith and love for Allah so you can have a the best weapon (Allah) to succedd in life. Once again, I once went threw what you went threw and I am here now better then ever.
Allah ma3ak Inshallah, I will be praying for you in my prayers.